Most mornings I wake up at 4:30am when my Husband’s alarm goes off and lie there feeling miserable about the fact that in 30 minutes my own alarm will go off. I’m not a morning person and if my cats are not yowling outside the bedroom door to be fed then I may have 30 minutes more to “wake-up” and get my life together before I drag myself in to the shower. Though I will say, that if my Husband starts playing the Pokemon theme tune and starts lipsyncing with full dance moves, that tends to get me up in a better mood! I often have the best intentions when dressing, I see my Partyskirts I see my Bliss Tulle skirts hanging in the closet and I want to wear them every day but instead I often (being in a Corporate work environment) think “no, can’t wear that” and out come the black pants and plain shirt – clothing that does not make me feel like a “Bawse” and make me feel like I can conquer the day.
When I was 5 years old, I took Ballet lessons although apparently I was far more interested in running around the room like a fairy, I dreamed of wearing the big tulle skirts that the Professional Ballerinas wore and while I did not continue my Ballet classes I did take with me my love of Princessy skirts and tulle. I am ultra feminine when it comes to style, un-apologetically so. I will happily go out dressed in a pretty dress when everyone else is wearing butt-cheek bearing denim shorts and tank tops and that’s just me but Tulle, I always loved and still was too afraid to wear.
I always worried that people would think “how old is she – she’s too old to be wearing that” I worried too much about the POSSIBLE opinions of others – of course I had no idea what they were thinking really but my Anxiety kicked in and made me think that everyone would judge and ridicule me.
Life requires a lot of Strength to get through, it requires agility and the ability to adapt to constantly changing environments, people, personalities, and situations, it requires the ability to be nimble, quick and light on your toes much like a Ballerina on stage. You realize eventually that your life is your own and your choices and decisions are your own and though you may be criticized for the decisions that you make (as long as your decisions don’t harm anyone else or put anyone else in danger) then too bad for the critics, there will always be someone who is looking for an argument and there will always be people who just don’t like you and you’ll have no idea why, especially if you’ve never met them or only met them a couple of times in life.
If you want to wear the Tulle then wear the Tulle who cares if someone gives you a funny look, maybe that’s just their face – don’t take it personally and don’t worry so much about what people you know will think of your outfit because if they’re real Friends and decent people then they won’t judge you on your sartorial choices anyway. Your clothes should fit your personality and who wants to look like everyone else anyway – how boring would that be?